HOW

How do I hold my head high

when I want to weep
how do I sit on the stairs and listen to our two year old cry

when he doesn’t want to sleep

How do I not feel alone

when everyone else is part of a pair

how do I pull myself out of a slump when I want to

but feel only despair

How do I watch our baby start kindergarden

with only me at the door

how do I be satisfied

and not want more

How do I move forward

and try to enjoy each day
how do I know what to do for our kids

and what to say

We didn’t choose this
nobody would
life shouldn’t be this hard for our babies
I know you’d change it if you could

I miss you I love you and I feel so alone
I wish I had you to share it with Mark

I wish you could come home.